Thursday, April 9, 2009

Do I need to issue a declaration to clear up this stupid issue? I told myself it didn’t matter. But I won’t deny that it’s making my existence more painful than it already this.

I could accept anything. I told myself to be indifferent to it, but this misconception I cannot find it within myself to accept. I can’t.

Do you know what I kind of people I despise the most?

It’s those kinds of heartless people who mess with people’s life for their own amusement. Those people who finds pleasure in other people’s pain.

It’s disgusting.

When I realized that this is what people perceive this entire farce to be, I was simply floored. So this is what you think of me. I held back the tears and controlled the fury, but must I live this way?

I wasn’t crying just now. But I certainly am now.

What mistake did I commit that things have to hurt me this way?

Just for your stupid actions, I’m paying the price.

Shandong, suddenly all my anticipation seemed to left me. Why should I continue on this path on never ending misery.

I resent you, know that.

I somehow cannot regret my wish, to never have to see you again.

I am so tired of all these.

Let’s just end it here.

Everything I believed in is a lie.

But this, this is a truth I can’t deny.

Please, don’t make up stories if you don’t know crap.